selah again!

in the comforts of my office, waiting for a high rank to come and vet the corporate video i'm doing for him, i have hence denegerated into a lifeless sloth in front of the I-Net.

as well as gorging myself so much these past 2 days that even the legendary foodie Bryan W would blush.

i apologise to myself for the past few weeks, i've let myself and my sanity be overtaken by thoughts that materalised out of even smaller thoughts. its' a chain reaction really. i'm finally back on track with a much more stable mentality.

whatever's meant to be shall past. whatever isnt' shall go.

midnight jogging. needed.

i so need to run.

my thoughts are getting clogged again, and i'm not thinking straight.

if given the ability to reverse time, i'd just be friends. it's getting to become a guessing game and hangman all at the same time.

something revelational at SGH

my department had the half day off to go see our dept i/c James @ SGH after his sinus operation.

when we entered, we saw his girlfriend, taking time off her teaching job just to accompany him, heard she was there for over 12 hours already.

after the operation, there would be bleeding coming out from the eye, the mouth and the nose. so you could imagine the mess it was.

however, the thing that touched me most was, the girl was so mentally strong, she just helped james wipe off the blood from his cotton-patched nose without any flinching, or any look of disgust, she helped swipe the blood-stained eye of his with a smile, and took the spitoon bowl when he needed to spit out the phelgm/blood and other salivary substances (that happened very often)

i looked at them and smiled in admiration. james is a lucky ass, for a girlfriend who cared so much to take time off her career. and to be able to joke freely, like she's his best friend.

no wonder The Matriach found it hard when my dad passed away, indeed marriage, or heck, relationships are when you find your bestfriend and you compliment each other and take time for each other.

i think that was real sweet and life taught me a damn good lesson about relationships today.

something for a 3some.

Three Things You Want To Do Before You Die:
1) have a long lasting healthy relationship
2) get my own property
3) afford my own funeral

Three Names You Go By:
1) Isaac
2) Zhi / Zhiyang
3) "oei bitch!"

Three Screen Names You Have Had:
1) 志
2) itczy
3) Isaac

Three Physical Things You Like About Yourself:
1) Skin - quite smooth on the face, some girls would kill for this. :)
2) big hands - oh yes. *wink wink*
3) ears - proportionate, goldilock-ish. not too big nor small.

Three Parts Of Your Heritage:
1) Chinese
2) Thai
3) -

Three Things That Scare You:
1) Rejection
2) Death
3) Rejection

Three Of Your Everyday Essentials:
1) wallet
2) Hp
3) my facebook account. (ha)

Three Things You Are Wearing Right Now:
1) instantkarma tank top "DOOR BITCH"
2) my beloved but soon-to-be-chui GANT pants
3) sexy BUM undies (oo lala)

Three Of Your Favorite Bands/Musical Artists:
1) Natasha Beddingfield
2) Rihanna
3) Goo Goo Dolls

Three Of Your Favorite Songs:
1) Natasha Beddingfield - Soulmate
2) Rihanna - Don't stop the music
3) Carrie Underwood - Some Hearts

Three Things You Want In A Relationship:
1) a best friend
2) loyalty (don't you dare go fuckin' around)
3) communication / transparency

Three Physical Things About The Preferred Sex That Appeal To You:
1) built - i ain't want no michelin man or 2d-figure.
2) Looks - whoever said looks does not matter is lying (i agree with my twin deeps)
3) jawlines. something about 'em.

Three Of Your Favorite Hobbies:
1) dancing
2) dragonboating
3) volleyball

Three Things You Want To Do Really Badly Right Now:
1) not think about someone
2) kiss someone
3) forget someone.

Three Careers You're Considering/You've Considered:
1) Church Worker (quick laugh it out!)
2) Teacher
3) Piano Performer

Three Places You Want To Go On Vacation:
1) Australia
2) Taiwan
3) Krabi

Three Kid's Names You Like:
1) Jade
2) Brandon
3) Keagan

Three Ways That You Are Stereotypically A Girl:
1) I whine
2) I have bitch fits and mood swings
3) I love shopping. period.

Three Ways That You Are Stereotypically A Boy:
1) I am lazy. lazy lazy lazy.
2) I do not know when is my limit in pursuing the one i love.
3) I pick my nose.

Three People You Tag:
1) Twin Gorgeous
2) Dominic
3) Mabel

ja ja jaded.

lazing around the house for the whole Sunday gives me lotsa time to organise my room, clean the house, do something productive, make a difference to society and cultivate world peace step by step.

not.

i woke up to a messy room and upon clearing one box of stuff, i proceeded to surf facebook.com, and afterward traipsing downstairs to the living room to watch cartoon network and nickelodeon in between bouts of power naps and surviving on grape yakult and a pau for a total of 8 hours till dinner.

my mind's not in the mood. i really think that i'm gonna be happy being single and STAY single. i don't wanna wear my heart on my sleeve anymore (as much as i insist it's not gonna happen, some perfectly fine potential comes in and stirs everything up, life's a bitch ain't it)

and the fact that it's so complicated makes it worse. aiya. i wish i didn't think so much (as much as many of you all disgree!)

let's look foward to something.

*hesitates*

christmas!

heres to good fuzzy feelings, presents galore, food food foodies, nice lightups, bargains and sales and partying with your friends.

not.

heres to bills bills bills, expanding waistlines, crowded mobs of disgusting smelly people, overpriced inflated items, partying with your unconscious drunken friends.

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i swear i'm becoming jaded on not just the aspect of love, but for life and in general. gah. random rants. stupid work tomorrow.

just call me angsty_b0i87rawkzx@hotmail.com lol

what happened to my social life?

if they say that the house maketh a man, then i am very messy and in renovations. what happened to my social life? man. i miss these people. some i see often, but nv had heart t heart chats.

twins shouldn't be seperable. x'mas shopping soon!

i don't know what happened, i don't know what's with your problems. hope to hear from you soon.

our next foodie committee meal, must be before x'mas guys! or before yuwen flies off again!

get out of camp lar bitch. :P

truly sensational. more gelare times pal. (:

always a place in my heart. it's the mugging period for all you uni-woonies, and a travelling time for atas-swinging-singles to go abroad hor. tsk! brekos with me next time lar! i promise i won't work on that day if you all ask earlier. LOVES!

Bee-zy B. sooon!

thursday blessing.

so an old friend, Joseph and i hung out this evening.

starting out by making 2 circles around Kim Seng area hesitating on Zion road Food centre

afterwhich, settling at Cold rock @ Holland V for some chunky unconventionally mixed icecream and confectionary/chocolates.

to Mt Faber, to relive my childhood days of non-commercial hills (alas) and circling around it twice, to take a better glimpse of the blue-neon christmas tree (and couples making out and getting it on in the jiggling stationary vehicles and misty condensed windshield)

and finally to Labrador Park, facing the jetty, overlooking the vast panoramic view of the waters beyond.

what a fruitful thursday. aside from Acolades and Anecdotes exchanged, i learnt one thing from him and his ex: persevere, and take it easy. i didn't realise how long they went out before they got together, a friggin 7 months. can you believe that?

and for myside, i'm taking things slow still.. just as godpa adviced. (:

alots on my mind (what's new?) i'm just waiting for your side to initiate.