a slight ramble before the usual sunday nght.

the feeling of booking in totally sucks. i look around my room and see the abundant privileges a civilian has and i turn a distinguished shade of envy green.

i realised that national service can be a lonely time in a person's life. the adjustments one has to make to go through the regimental (or at times, detrimental) methods they adhere to.

what makes this booking in much worse is the fact that next week i won't be booking out due to the fact that field camp starts. gah. and no showers. double gah.

went to watch a play last night, and it spoke wonders to my heart, love isn't about lust or passion, it's about contentment, knowing that who you're with is more than enough for you.

god, it's 1 year and 11 months to go. this countdown is probably worst than it seems.

had a good heart to heart chat with kimbo last night after watching the play, it was nice to hear a familiar voice amidst this military life. though it was mainly shallow talks (about how SOMEONE was relishing the sales in town), a heart to heart connection binds us through friendship. hearts girl, school starting soon, enjoy this while you can!

so Ave's over at the house whilst i'm packing my field bag and we're just discussing Harry Potter. won't say much except that the humour level for this movie is MUCH LESS. god, it's becoming so dark.

so heres a good ole cheerios till either the 3rd of August (hopefully) or the 4th if they're not that nice. i'll be back with an oily complexion (fuck) and and outbreak (triple fuck) and hopefully some pounds lost (hurray).

and i'll be your macho soldier. HAHAHAHAHHAA. okay, keep that laughter to a small guffaw.

over the past 2 sundays

sending ah jie off to her American Holiday. on an EXTREMELY early sunday morning.

almost missed it!
there she goes, she'll be back early august. miss her already! WEIYIN WE ALL MISS YOU!

and a gift! i always wanted a skinny tie (:

Last sunday had lunch with the bar colleagues TSBF Leon & Kelly and newest member Yu Wen at a japanese resteraunt at Central. (we had semi-bad service due to TSBF Leon making fun of wad the staff had to say when customers entered the stall LOL)

me & TSBF Leon!
Kelly & Yu Wen
super big feast. thanks TSBF leon for the treat

followed by sinful decadence at Haagen Daaz at boat quay. gawd the calories HAHA.

Coy Pride!

Orion (IPA: /ə(ʊ)ˈraɪən/), a constellation often referred to as The Hunter, is a prominent constellation, one of the largest and perhaps the best-known and most conspicuous in the sky. Its brilliant stars are found on the celestial equator and are visible throughout the world, making this constellation globally recognized. In the northern hemisphere Orion is visible in the evening from November to April.

According to the most common contemporary imagery: Orion is standing next to the river Eridanus with his two hunting dogs Canis Major and Canis Minor, fighting Taurus the bull. Other prey of his, such as Lepus the hare, can be found nearby.

Mythology

In one version, Artemis, the goddess of hunt and the moon fell in love with Orion. She was so entranced by him, she forgot her divinely duty of illuminating the night sky. Her twin brother Apollo, seeing Orion swimming in the sea, dared his sister to strike what only appeared to be a spot on the waves. Not knowing it was Orion, Artemis shot an arrow and killed him. Later, when she found out what she did, she placed his body among the stars. The grief she felt explains why the moon looks so sad at night.

In a different ending of this myth, Apollo's jealousy led him to summon a giant scorpion, which not even the mighty hunter Orion could defeat, and he was killed by its poisonous sting. In some versions he slays the scorpion just after it stings him, and they die simultaneously. This explains the seasonal alternation of the appearance of the constellations of Orion (October to April) and Scorpius (April to October), which do not appear in the sky together. Legends differ on whether this separation was imposed by the gods so that they would never have to fight again or so that they would be eternally chasing each other.

week 3.

press on, look beyond the mild discomfort of living under a questionable system and into the deep blue where passion & interest thrives.

i know it's a difficult time for all of us, so let's just all be there for each other and as a few of us have said so already, "have faith".

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the week has been full of challenging moments, but i shan't go into exact detail (lest a confidentiality agreement with the SAF has been breached *shudders*, OR i bore the girls to death with "green" talk)

the matriach and i have reached a mutual understanding over the time i spend at NS, we really talked it over at The Straits Kitchen @ Hyatt. i think all these post-bookout lunches kinda eases us over especially during this period where i'm practically tied down with green things. *rolls eyes*

and in the weekend, Ave had to cover something over at Pan Pacific, so we got to go up to the Sulu Suite to view the fireworks, followed by a nice 6 course dinner @ Global Kitchen for some South African Cuisine, such as Eggplant Crackers, Springbok (some kinda veal), Wild Boar, Crayfish Risotto etc.. and ended the evening down at the ground floor bar, The Atrium, with Purple Haze (Tequila + blueberry juice, syrup & fruit!) & Midori Melon Pineapple. and it's all. on. the. house!

pictures up maybe next week, i'm too lazy to find my 6280 adaptor and install the nokia software. gawd.

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i've realised that my blog has been viewed by marnie may-nee peeople. some i didn't expect to, and worse, some i didn't know.

i'm fine if ya read it, but if ya gonna judge me from my fi-li-fa-lah language or the occasional wayang-ness when i'm in a not-so-bubbly mood, then i'm sorry! -100 points.

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himbotic statements aside, the PTP phase has officially ended, now it's onto BMT, here's to more long 4 uniforms & less physical conditioning (which i totally am grateful for without the regimental issues)

my bunkmates are a dream lar, we have potluck nightsnacks every night, followed by bitchings (gasp, surprising isn't it) and complaining (just from my buddy ha). We're pretty co-operative and try our best to make it out of BMT alive.

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so many issues being flung left right centre, i don't know where to start. i think i'll just randomly fling out what's on my mind.

Word Vomit.

i feel like sometimes, when you're at your top, the only way is down. and i think it's much better to leave on a high note, coz people tend to remember the negative things about you, so leaving on a positive conclusion is always better, it tends to negate the bitter taste of departure.

i also feel that life is like a transition, even in the sacred bible, ecclesiastes quotes that "there's a season for everything, a season for mourning, a season for celebrate(?) ..." i really don't want this season to end really, it's been the best years of my life, even without a confirmed university spot, or a good portfolio. thank you.

i also feel that a decision made based on a group of people with a common interest should be lead with fairness and without a one-man-made decision. The destruction of a group could be ignited due the inability to look beyond being bitterly hurt over issues. but the thing is, as much as damage is taken by the knife, there's a reason why you bleed.

i'm quite surprised. really i am, i kinda noticed it over the past week and it was confirmed.

i know some of these are quite vague, and i intend to leave 'em vague. the rest has been carefully archived onto my rabbit diary which dear pal Reza has given to me for journalism purposes in camp.

i don't wanna lead an army life,

i just wanna lead a civvie life

PC don't let me go

OC say no no no

MAMA i wanna go homeeeee.

2nd weekend(?)_

so the weekend has gone by with a flash, with very little camera-work this time.

i can't believe i'm booking in again, the feeling is the suck and pretty much have like less than 2 hours left before booking in.

quite happy that i booked out on a friday afternoon (the rarity, the very rare rarity). Had Sizzler Buffet with The Matriach, followed by a brief visit to Uncle Alan's place to pop by and catch up. Afterwhich, spent some time with my boo.

then... had a great nite out with Alaric, Ah Pan, Ah Kong, Maybell, Yin & Mr Wee. haha. omg. crazy night as usual. pictures up soon! ( ps: Alaric & Ah Pan, peektures by next weekend pls! also, tekong pictures and previous outings toooooo. esp the competition!)

Saturday was abuzz with many diff emotions displayed, making baby mad (sorrrry) then spending some quality alone time at home and heading out to town to shop a bit before heading down to vivocity to meet my baby boo (: (yes it's mushy fuck isn't it)

bought a zara blue/white striped shirt! pictures of me wearing 'em sooon! gosh, 5 days being deprived of spending no more than a few coins has certainly made me an impulsive shopper.

having our first month aniversary dinner at sakae sushi, followed by going down to Holland V area for Reza & Andrew's midsummer night's dream party.

omg the house/masion is f-huge, and big, drinks galore, and i had a tarot card reading from Priya!

she's been featured before in like a post a month back, and i've seen her readings finally! it's pretty accurate, particularly about my relationship as well as my education route. gonna go read up on tarot cards too. think it's card decks are very visually appealing, and it does make sense too..

and this morning, at the ungodly hour of 0700 hours, we went to send off none other than my dear ol jie Weiyin off to the Airport as she's going overseas for a holiday for 3 weeks. gosh. we'll miss you!

afterwhich, we retreated to east Coast Mac's for breafkfast and finally to..

....good ol Kallang for Dragonboat practice, man it's been so long since i've held onto a paddle and gave my best to a set.

Rusty is pretty much an understatement, but i was thankful, under the watchful eye of Jonson & the senior rowers.. gosh, if i could substitute strength training with this. that'd be great. (((:

and now after a quick lunch-dinner @ suntec, i'm back here.

sounds monotonous without the help of pictures. but i guess baby's with me now. i'm happy at least (:

cya in a week GAHHHH

PS: THE PHOTOS PEOPLE PLEASE SEND ME NEXT WEEKEND!

Happy Aniversary! :)

2 weeks in a very very big nutshell.

so i've finally FINALLY enlisted, and really big hugs out to (L2R) Alaric, Daryl, Derrick, Ah yi & The Matriach for sending me off to my beautiful sunny island resort east of Singapore.

it's very regimental and i so can't imagine myself earning crabs or stripes or polka dots for that matter. there's very little space for creativity, there's always uniformity and standardization.

in a sense, i like the sense of unity where it's one for all and all for one, not the corporal punishment where we're all in it together (some just don't know how to learn tardiness and ill-disicpline-ism)

and also, that shade of green is so not my colour.

after 2 weeks of the PTP, i've gotten a wee bit toner, darker (still got tanlines) and much more man. HAHA. so much for being a forever-boy.

My sergeants and commanders are mostly strict but fair, and has welfare sense, ORION ORION ALL THE WAY!



so immediately after bookout (wait not immediately, thanks to some near-meaningless exhibition to the Singapore Discovery Centre till 6pm) , the Matriach brought me home and after freshening up, we headed down to Pete's Place @ The Hyatt for some dinner. the Seafood Pasta is the sex, half lobster, loadsa scallops fish prawns. GAWD, everything that was lacking at the cookhouse.

guess WHO popped by after SO LONG OKAY. :) (link to her blog about me. she so nice okiezxzx) and of course, she decided to turn me on with her hot sex army commander look. LOL.

my excuse is that i was high by then. lol.

dropping by ye' ol' workplace to see Ah Jie Kelly! TSBF Leon was too busy flirting as usual. that slut. HUR.

and Aviel then drove Mandy to her BF's place, and was very valiant enough to drive za and me home too. thanks Aviel! :)

at Bedok Reservoir

the superb Group B doing their warmups.

i SWEAR as they were rowing to the starting point, alaric was smiling at the camera. lol.

lookie them! boat number 5!!!!! it was such an adrenaline rush cheering by the sidelines, i felt like i was in the boat with them, sharing their sweat, aches and grit. They did their best and they are champion rowers in my heart. that's loyalty and love.

plus, it was great seeing the group after a 14 day hiatus. Daryl, Derrick, Alaric, Weiyin, Mabel, Jayson, Jeremy etc.. many thanks to their a-letter-a-night gift to me during my confinement period. i left 'em in my locker so i'll show 'em the next time.

i wish i could spend more time with ya guys, if it wasn't for the rite of manhood i have ta go through. >_<

CCWA @ Marina South, Steamboat buffet! food was good and massive, pity we didn't sit under the stars, instead we were melting even with high powered fans near us

the feeling of booking in sucks.

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The weekend was awesome, all the way since Friday.

Drinks on Friday,
Saturday Breakfast @ The Botanical Gardens
Shoppings together @ Beach Rd
Driving The Matriach to my Uncle's place
Driving me here & there at your expense
A Romantic trip down to Sentosa at 2330hours to Rasa Sentosa
Constantly keeping me awake (and sober) while en route back home
waking up to a dim sum like breakfast
matching outfits for both nights

you were there when i needed you most. i want to do the same.