The Night we called it A Day

aside from 2 conseceutive days of rowing (i'm a righty for the comp!), my mind's been pretty much in a relaxed mode.

i just don't want to think anymore about us.

I'm gonna make you bend and break
(It sends you to me without wait)
Say a prayer but let the good times roll
In case God doesn't show
(Let the good times roll, let the good times roll)
And I want these words to make things right
But it's the wrongs that make the words come to life
"Who does he think he is?"
If that's the worst you got
Better put your fingers back to the keys

One night and one more time
Thanks for the memories
even though they weren't so great
"He tastes like you only sweeter"
One night, yeah, and one more time
Thanks for the memories, thanks for the memories
"He, he tastes like you only sweeter"

Been looking forward to the future
But my eyesight is going bad
And this crystal ball
It's always cloudy except for
When you look into the past (look into the past)
One night stand (one night stand off)


One night and one more time
Thanks for the memories
even though they weren't so great
"He tastes like you only sweeter"
One night, yeah, and one more time
Thanks for the memories, thanks for the memories
"He, he tastes like you only sweeter"

They say I only think in the form of crunching numbers
In hotel rooms collecting page six lovers
Get me out of my mind and get you out of those clothes
I'm a liner away from getting you into the mood, whoa

One night and one more time
Thanks for the memories
even though they weren't so great
"He tastes like you only sweeter"
One night, yeah, and one more time
Thanks for the memories, thanks for the memories
"He, he tastes like you only sweeter" (X2)

-Fall Out Boy - Thanks for the memories.

i'll try to move on.

revelational.

the spammers, the people who criticise me, bitch about me, backstab me, and all that hoo hah..

sometimes, i don't need my own words to concur up what i feel.

"wild dogs don't bark at
parked cars" - Dick Cheney's
Wife in TIME Magazine Interview.

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comprende? :)

13 random people

Can you name 13 people you can think of right off the top of your head? Anyone you're thinking of, in no order. Don't read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 13 people. Absolutely NO cheating and switching positions on the list, either! READY, START!


1. derrick kong
2. Mandy oh-so-gorgeous Soh
3. Mabel Wong
4. Lin Weiyin
5. Daryl
6. Alaric
7. "Daddy" Jeremy Wee
8. Aviel
9. Hifzan
10. Jason (THE pti)
11. Dominic
12. TSBF Leon
13. Kimbo

THE QUESTIONS:
1. How did you meet 2?
(Mandy) oh, her? mmmm. i applied for a job during my final sem of my Poly days, apparently she was the senior b*tch in Instant Karma, and after a rough start, we're pretty tight (: my lovely karmic twin.

2. What would you do if you NEVER met 6?
(Alaric) i'd never understand the meaning of putting thought, sincerity and meaning and individuality to each gift given during a birthday. PS: he is extremely creative in his b'dae presents. gosh, if you had one, it's like a treasure already! oh oh, and i wouldn't know the word "chui" hehe.

3. What would you do if 2 and 9 dated?
(Mandy & Hifzan) HAHAHA. oh god, they'd have very tall dancers. club dancers that is (hiffy CAN bust a move on the dance floor)

4. Did you ever like 8?
(Aviel) i did. :) he's very nice.

5. Would 1 and 5 be a good couple?
(Daryl & Derrick) omg, they're dudes man, they're already buddies, so unless one of them changes their names to Patsy or Rose, then maybe not *wink*.

6. Is number 11 gay/lesbian?
(Dominic) i'm not so sure, but he's extremely uber-sexual. LOL.

7. Would you tell secrets to 5?
(Daryl) yup! he's one of the people in my circle, but pity he's always busy with school work (jiayou daryl!)

8. Do you know any of 1's family members?
(Derrick) oh yes, his mum's b'dae just passed a few weeks ago (happy birthday mrs kong!)

9. What's 10's favorite color?
i'd say PINK. LOL.

10. What would you do if 9 confessed he/she liked you?
(Hifzan) i wouldn't be surprised. everybody LOVES isaac. haha. -denial-

11. What language does 3 speak?
English, Chinese, Cantonese ( i heart! ), a unique laughter and of course, Bitch (it IS a language people!)

12. Who is 9 going out with?
(Hifzan) i think he's single. who wants an officer as their boyfriend? omgomg.

13. What grade is 12 in?
(TSBF Leon) he's studying in SMU.

14. When did you last see 7?
(Jeremy) Just a while back with Derrick, Mabel & Weiyin @ Lao Pa Sat for Supper, before that at Cini Subway having dinner.

15. What is 13's favorite band?
(Kimbo) Muse, Placebo etc..

16. Would you ever date 3?
(Mabel) no way, my big sister! how can oneeeee. tsk!

17. Is 1 hot?
(Derrick) many girls are attracted to him (yes yes derr, pls squeal, or ahem macho growl in delight! Haha)

18. Is 12 single?
(Leon) i'd assume so (update your status quo lar TSBF)

19. Would you ever want to be in a serious relationship with 1?
(Derrick) a serious long life friendship, yes. :) my mambo partner k!

20. Where does 8 go to school?
(Aviel) NTU comms.

21. What's 4's best physical feature?
(weiyin) her impersonation of people. okay tts not a best physical feature, but i love her skin, it's very smooth!

22. Are number 7 & 8 best friends?
(aviel & Jeremy) not really, they've seen each other around but don't talk to each other.

23. Is 8 a girl or boy?
(aviel) a boy!

24. Who is 2 in love with?
(mandy) her boyfriend/ fiance / husband-to-be and a friend of mine, JD.

25. What is your last memory of 7?
cracking jokes about derrick's unique laughing method while going up the escalator in heeren (it just happened today!)

26. Have you ever hooked up with 4?
(weiyin) ew no way! haha.

27. What is the funniest memory of 8?
(Aviel) oh yes fooling around with my camera @ subway PS.



28. What is your relationship with 6?
(Alaric) Fellow Rabbits and Fellow CCWA Boaters!

29. How old is 13?
(Kimbo) she's 19 this year!

30. How close are you with 1?
(derric) we're mambo partners and people watchers! unite!

31. Would you sleep with 12?
(Leon) hahaha. NEXT QUESTION PLEASE.

32. What is your favorite memory with 3?
(Mabel) walking around raffles place with her to get CCWA beach outing stuff, shopping for kong's present, beach road hotel for weili's farewell (being the only girl there!), Daryl's 21st. wow so many memories lar. omg. i hearts mabel! :D

33.Who's 11 best friends with?
(Dominic) mmmm i'm not that sure, but me him and jason are quite cool w each other (:

34. What's your favorite thing about 2?
I can be totally open with her.

greetings from the green north

hola amigos and amigas,

currently in the midst of self studying in Camp, i have hence decided to put down some thoughts (non-SAF related of course)

so far, i'm not exactly liking my camp and judging by current health condition, i don't think i should be adjusting into the culture here. afterall, nothing's confirmed till Monday.

all i wanna think about is that my health should not be detrimental just for the sake of chiong sua for 2 years, i'm thinking long term. who wants a broken back for a chocolate bar during this 2 years? i'd rather be a lowlife and have a longer healthier time in earth.

gah, but there's not much physical stuff involved. mainly theory and lectures and what have you.

gah i miss my beloved friends, i so need to get my civilian life back. sigh. 1 year 9 months to go.

i wish i didn't have to waste my time addressing this.

okay, i've FINISHED packing for camp already. gosh look at the time.

say goodbye to my goatee

as i get ready for my new unit

and on a very different note. i've this to say only.

love me or hate me it's still an obsession,
love me or hate me that is the question.
if you love me then, FUCK YOU! :)
if you hate me then, FUCK YOU! :P

and if you keep on flooding, it only shows that:

1) you're obsessed with me and can't stop thinking about me non stop day night come rain come shine 24/7

2) you're obsessed with me to start calling me derogatory names so that i shall pay attention to you while you secretly swoon in your own room and prance around saying "OMG ISAAC FINALLY LOVES AND PAYS ATTENTION TO ME OMG OMGOMG *fans self frantically"

3) you've got bad english, coz euu karn speel feor nartz.

and

4) you're my stalker, aye velli baad yin engrish shhhhh-talker.

so if you keep on flooding, sorry man, you are all of the above.

and don't "oh big fuck ar big fuck ar", like hello who asked you to come here in the first place? besides, flooding is so PASSE, don't live in the 1990s.

i hope this is the last time i have to address my stalkers who are madly in love with me, and see how they act out with their expression for love for me with such bad english? it's so sad it's pitiful. i know which organization to put my tax exemptions to, english lessons for the mentally retarded.

see ya guys in a week :)

procrastinator extraordinaire.

when you're late for church and you can't find your favourite (new) Zara Jeans..


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you surf Friendster.com, Facebook.com & of course, blog.

Room Improvement! 55% done.

expanded mirror length on thursday.

okok i admit, closet self-loving whore (And what a hypocritical statement considering my previous previous entry about loving others more than yourself, but hey, i'll just say i've got good esteem -narf-)

Lunch with Chrystal & Pig Out Night with the CCWA beloved!

i usually meet up with my (distant) cousin Chrystal for the occasional shopping and meal and catching up (an event rarely upheld except for the annual CNY traditions). this NTU mass comm babe is STILL single, and how is that possible is beyond me.

striking a pose whilst our rendezvous starts @thai express Paragon, with a delicious array of soft shell crab curried rice, mango salad, and pad thai thalay, accompanied with the tantalizing lime watermelon crushed ice drink.


and of course thanks to Jackie's intro to Toast @ Taka, i gamely brought her to the delightful cupcake shop and of course, had the nutella cupcake, as well as the Chocolate Deluxe cupcake, which by the way, is GORGEOUSLY SINFUL. this could be a regular haunt for me from now on, so deeeeelicious.

and finally, shopping around town. :) next meetup MUST be before CNY 2008 k. loves!

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Canadian 2-for-1 pizza! bbq chicken bonanza, chicken cheeseburger, atlantis (seafood) & good ol'hawaiian.

lookie what we found! paddle pop rainbow. flavour revealed! the multicoloured eclectic childhood delight is actually a combination of toffee and caramel flavour. no wonder i had so much caffeine in my blood to scream like a mad monk around west coast park way back in 1994.

the family shot, which by accident was tilted to the left, but the rest said it was artistic, sooooo.... artistic it is! *beams*

kena taupok-ed. can see who "dislikes" me the most. haha. kidding. :p

i caught my turtle cheating on me.

so i flocked to my darling mabel-san (mama-san), which the rest of the boys always do. haha.

gosh, i'm so tired to blog out much, so the pictures shall do the talking (well, only the non-restricted photos)

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SHOPPAHOLIC ALERT.

Topman Red + Blue V Neck Jersey = $29.00
Instant Karma Candy striped berms = $44.00(i think)
Zara Relaxed Fit Jeans = $129.00

Total: $202.00

i am officially broke. i need a sugar daddy. for REAL. or a mummy, whichever gender can bring in the moolah. to think i nearly wanted to buy a FCUK polo as well. thank goodness chrystal slapped me.

time for some scrimping till X'mas (yeah right)

rambling at 0245. pride and it's greed.

someone explain to me why i always bend over backwards for people?

issit coz i've less pride than most people do? i don't really care about what people think of me (anymore), i aimed lower. that's when failure sets in, i don't feel so disappointed or discouraged.

issit coz i'm/was a Jesus freak? i was raised on principles that would send the Atheist spine tingling. to love others more than loving yourself, to find a need, meet a deed. Care for others like how Jesus cares for me.

issit coz i'm naturally empathic? i want the best for other people, or in real fact, the ones that i love. LOVE. not the ones that i know, but the ones that i love. clear cut line. i have compassion, i hurt when my loved ones are hurt, i cry when my loved ones cry, i celebrate when they celebrate.

issit coz i'm thoughtful? i'm trying my best to comprehend how the other party feels. well, most of the time i'm quite vigilant in discerning emotions, well except those that have an Emotional range of a teaspoon.

maybe i'm just nice. and i like being nice. there, i said it. i LIKE BEING NICE. it gives me that warm fuzzy feeling, it makes me smile to myself.

there's enough Osamas and Saddams in this world to make it so dark and corrupt, we need more care and consideration.

let me start by loving the people around me more. at least those that matter and give a damn about how i feel.

dream big, start small, act now.

the legendary EQUINOX

shiny shiny lift buttons and thank god they removed the cliche elevator music. but to my demise the lousy-very-lousy elevator music was echoed throughout ..

the whole EQUINOX itself. so you could hear the instrumental versions of "careless whisper", "i just called to say i love you"etc.. wad a killer to the cuisine.

here's some nice mushroom soup (obviously has a more atas name which i forgot, some cuppacino fungi or watever)

some mud crab. with real crab flesh!

was so excited to taste foie gras for my first time (yes yes, country bumpkin, get over it) ...

can someone say i'm not into these fine culinary food? foie gras tasted like.. the roasted suckling pig's fat (we usually eat the roasted skin right?) and some bad mayonnaise mixed and squeezed into a weiner shape. tsk! (the white stuff is cream, the rectangle thing is sponge sweet cake, and droplets of marmalade all around. the sausage lookalike is the foie gras)

the main course, miso cod with edamame beans drizzled with some unique teriyaki sauce. PALATABLE and the salmon flesh is so nice, its meat is nicely shredded with a touch of a fork, still a bit firm for that touch of freshness.

and of course, dessert, orgasmically good. some chocolate truffle, mint sorbet and some menthol syrup. so nice i had to pose dumb-ass-ly.

"wahhhh, sugar cubes! brown and white some more lehhh" [i'm kidding]

and finally, near the lift lobby. breathtaking.

to that special buddy of many years!

wow. okay, what turned out sour for us turned out to be the start of a beautiful friendship, i'm glad we're there for each other though time and army and schooling doens't really allow it. next time drinks on me okay!

[my friend prefers to remain anonymous lest you guys hound on his door for not bringing you to equinox]

Vivocity with Sirius & Herman // Dempsey Road Ben&Jerries with Bryan

a slow wednesday afternoon chillin' out round vivocity premises with my BMT buddies - Herman & Sirius. Starting off with a handpacked mix of Cookie Dough & Chunky Monkey (no herman, we don't want mango sorbet with the handpack -.-)

followed by Hotdog meals at Superdog...
(all the while talking about our legendary BMT days)

and FINALLY, down to Food Republic for some sweet treats!

ah yes, my accomplice in doing this....

for the platoon 4 office! yeah, he did the lettering on the right whilst i did the colouring for all the words. what a mighty team, pity our outfits for the photo. gawd.

okay, back to Vivocity. Missing BMT and PTP phase so much, we decided to hold our own AGR and I was Safety Officer, Herman was Conducting and Sirius was Supervising officer (duh, hello company best!)

unfortunately, someone did not have his 7 hours of sufficient sleep absolute rest, did not drink up half full water bottle, and did not sound off sick. i guess he fell out the hard way.

PS: some random dude sleeping in the most questionable position. heat exhaustion or sunny siesta?

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after the family dinner, i met up with Bryan @ vivocity AGAIN. and then we drove down to Dempsey Road for some desserts. and Lo and BEHOLD, for the 3rd time in 2 days, i'm having ...

BEN & JERRIES! (jies, don't say it, FSWL FSWL FSWL FSWL) Dempsey's Deco for B&J is so colonial, with it's high ceilings, fusion with a bar, and the fireplace and cosy furniture. and you can see, my good friend Bryan is happy to take this tourist-y picture (:

In his car!


PS: we just had an Apple Pie Ala Mode Vanilla Ice cream! coz we both had dinner before meeting up. and he blessed me with a DESTINY CD! Thanks Bryan, i'm very blessed by the CD and i hope to hear the live one this saturday :)

i'm glad i met up with Bryan, he really blesses me not just with little thoughtful gifts but by word of advice and the listening ear to my rants. :D

emo at 0121.

my heart paltipates in the stillness of the night. the balmy feeling of nocturnal liberation and the hypnotic twirl of the ceiling fan.

i'm sitting here in front of the luminous screen and i feel empty.

looking back (it's almost like a monthly trait) into my life, i'd say i've done alot, but i've not done enough to feed my soul's greed for ambitious accomplishments.

what's next?

Paris Hilton has nothing on me.

can someone spell socialite?

yesterday was with the Herman-nator (haha) and CB [Company best = Sirius] in the afternoon at vivo, followed by family dinner @ home, followed by Dempsey Road's Ben & Jerry's with Bryan.

today went to do some checkups and Xrays (don't ask), followed by IKEA with mummy (for more mirrors, haha), then watched Chuck & Larry with Alex and then EQUINOX (OMG) with a very old friend (who's so generous he shall not be named)

and then, tomorrow, Lunch @ Paragon with Chrystal the cousin, then the CCWA family boaters are coming over at night for some chillout/pigout sessions.

i think i'm happy. (: pictures up tomorrow.

a conversation.

tim: you there?
G: always.
tim: how have you been?
G: busy, but always here for you.
tim: okay, someone just reminded me of the good things you've done.
G: so i've heard.
tim: okay you hear everything, i keep on forgetting.
G: it's okay.
tim: mmmm, i feel sad.
G: come to me. didnt you always?
tim: yeah, but i kinda digressed for 9 months haven't i.
G: you've been busy.
tim: well, in my defense, so have you.
G: but i always make time for my loved ones.
tim: that's a lot of people
G: always a spot for you
tim: u do know my plans for the weekend right?
G: right when you thought about it, i knew already.
tim: intuition?
G: nah, a quality of mine : sovereign
tim: so i guess you know my urge?
G: to come this saturday? of course.
tim: that's great. u do know that i have no intentions of making this long term for now?
G: i know that.
tim: but can i just come to your house?
G: sure. i'm always open.

breaking free

have i learnt from these past few months? aplenty.

boundaries have been conquered. i breathe a sigh of great relief and grief, both at the same time. the heart bleeds for both victory and defeat, its really a myriad of emotions that scales through this mountain of uncertainty.

many people describe a situation like this as a closed chapter in life.

i don't.

i believe. this is like. a stack of cards thrown high up into the blue azure sky. the wind takes its course as it gently whispers words of wisdom and prediction as it caresses the cards through the air.

Why a stack of cards? life's a gamble, wherever each card lands on which continent of the world, it's based on a fraction of probability and the big enigma that is life itself.

would the king of hearts ever land on the same plateau as the queen of hearts again?

that's an enigma itself. and i'd leave it that way for now.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DERRICK KONG!

here's wishing a good friend and brother DERRICK KONG JUN XIAN a happy 22nd Birthday! it's been great having you around as a friend. You've brought laughter to the whole group with your unexpected antics and youthful presence (coughcough). we know deep inside you want nothing but the best for the group so stay that way! Let's mambo soon okay, we all know everyone hates us but secretly loves us coz they cannot mambo their way through life. LOVE YOU DEEPS DEEPS! :)

met up with the 2 jies before the dinner party. met at Novena and scouted all around there, proceeded to Suntec City, Marina Square, Raffles City, Heeren, Taka, Paragon, CK Tang, Isetan, Pacific Plaza and STILL could not find what we were looking for.

but of course, we dropped by our favourite eatery .. cough and did some stuff for Derrick. (see how much we loves you!)

after Cream Bistro (yes i fast forwarded the dinner part coz i don't have many pictures yet! oh alariccccc & jeremyyyyyy), met up with my favourite sluttaye Debbie. haha. and look at the array of orgasmic looks she can make.

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okay lar, i' m a nice friend, i shall post up just one unglam pic of her.

she then went back to my house to watch some TV and slack whilst waiting for the bf. see i'm so nice, Hotel Isaac is always up in orchard. tsk.

Yingying's monday.

a sneak preview of my newly revamped room, notice the lime green walls, the blue bed and my newly fixed IKEA mirrors which i DIY-ed :D (with the help of the maid of course). yet to be completed, the TV table, the built in wardrobe, newly hashed curtains.

meeting up with ms Eliza Gan Yingying of CHC fame. haha. yes, we pigged out literally @ Carls Jr followed by B&J with a ginormous hand packed serving of CCCD and CG. gosh, so much for all the hard work at BMT.

and i did remember ages ago when i first enlisted? i promised to show you guys what my lovely CCWA family did for me during my first 2 weeks? the letter-a-day? well, here it is guys! so many personalised postcards (like Derrick's ISAAC ISABELLA IVY CHAN MUST DIE from the JohnTuckerMustDie parody postcard -.-) and handwritten letters and printed photos! so precious that they're worth more than gold man. loves you all and am already all hyped up for the upcoming events! :)

okay. 7days to block leave, but i've already gotten myself so busy with appointments i needa find time for myself.

and enough of channel 5 news reports on my blog, time for some serious waxing .

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from popthemusicdrug

back to primary school! please finish the sentences in the most coherent manner possible (25 marks)

i am not : feeling 100% good

i am: recovering from food poisoning since the Chalet (photos up soon)

i hurt: easily!

i love: unconditionally

i hate : being sick

i fear: my plan A not coming to past.

i hope: to be happy with no strings attached one day.

i play : with players.

i cry : at any happy endings of any movie (no matter how romantic it is)

i care: too much about the welfares of others that i overstep it sometimes.

i wish: i studied harder in poly, heck, i wish i studied harder for Os.

i always : say that i'll never repeat the same mistake twice.

i listen: to catchy beats and club-friendly remixes.

i sing: good enough.

i dance: like sex with clothes on.

i search: for an answer to life

i learn: things slowly

i feel: that we all should give a damn about others instead of ourselves all the time

i know: others better than i know myself

i succeed: rarely coz i don't put in the effort required.

i fail: at relationships.

i dream: whenever, wherever

i sleep: coz i need to, not because i want to. life's too short for siestas.

i wonder: where'll i be posted to?

i need: money, time and a guardian to push me from procrastinating =X

i want: to spend more time with my loved ones (u know who ya all are!)

i worry: that i'll never have the V shaped body i desire

i have: a charming wit (that is more obvious and vehemently manifests when i'm "sexually frustrated" quote unquote TSBF)
i fight: for justice

i wait: for things beyond my control and also, when i procrastinate. heh

i think: too much that it's unhealthy

i can't help the fact that: i'm empathic, too empathic that it can make you hurl

i stay: right in town. so call me out will you?

a letter to the pre-enlistee

my dear Buddy Reza,

i have gone through the mandatory macho rite of passage and i've come out (albeit with a big of bruise, scratch and the lingering abrasion).

i've made friends that i can keep for life, i've gained experiences never to be forgotten and most of all, i've developed character that enforces my strong will.

i hope the notebook (pictured) i've bought for you be a sanctuary of your innermost thoughts, from the initial days of (definitely) insecurity, fear, trepidation, bashfulness and the like, to a transitional mood of angst & whiny-ness (on how f-ed up army life is) to just administrative recollections of your trainings (boy you're gonna find field camp memorable)

so cheers to your PTP BMT, and may yours just be as tough but memorable as mine.

many loves from your buddy of 4 years,

isaac.

Friends with smiles and family with contentment.

mummy's proud moment (:
thanks Hifzan, not only as a PC in camp, but also as a friend outside. (:

Menottis for a post-POP party with Aviel. FSNL hor the desserts.

post-POP coffee date with the cousins Matthew & Nicole @ Starbucks Liat Tower!