.

"i know this is out of the blue, but i'm getting married tomorrow. well, maybe i am. I keep thinking about you and i'm wondering if we made a mistake giving up so fast. Are you thinking about me? No, of course you're not. but if you are, call me tonight"
- Emily to Ross, FRIENDS Season 5.

red. not just the flag.

what a fucked up national day.

not only do i miss the live telecast of the NDP first time @ Marina Bay

i'm gonna be out in town alone thanks to ahem someone flying my plane. i swear i'm gonna throw an apple martini on my birthday. ha. kidding.

but i guess i'm gonna run errands around town as usual and get some party favourites up. i think some good ole me time has been missing for a while.

maybe it's time.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to THE MOST BEAUTIFUL GIRL IN (MY) THE WORLD!

TO THE SPECIAL GIRL IN MY HEART


you know, i didn't expect us to go so far in this friendship we have .. through our ugly times as R2D2, jabba the hut and bucktooth mutants...

or your geeky days and my gay smile days..

where we're all hush hush about our affairs even though it's quite open with our other halves...

or when we're all luohaned up and swollen in the faces from laugh cramps....

or when you always try to cheer me up with fake kisses when i'm down and i pull a *aheM* long face...

but still, you're an inner twit at heart.. aND I IsH OwiEZxZXz luRBChEwZXZXz~!

and i've gone through your different hairstyles.. bangs. side fringes.. no fringe (cough)

but you're always gorgeous, coz i'm always fabulous. we've been through sticky food courts, airconditioned malls, clubs..

but when we come back to the first time we got to know each other very well (above), there was a special atmosphere and i'm glad we've been through 11 months (nearly a year lar OMG!)

i'll gladly open my mouth and shout out "THANK YOU FOR BEING MY PRECIOUS FRIEND! -murmur- thoughwedon'tspendmuchtimenowadaysnowthatwe'reattachedtoourotherhalvescoughcough- "

but hey, we'll be professional
and pose our way through this period of life
for i'll stick by you and i've got your back...
you'll be goofy and i like that, you're yourself and i like that, you're the typical all girl and i like that ..
i love you Mandy Soh :) have a HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAR. no greater sibling love than this. hearts my karmic twin deepzxzxzx.

Hotel Paper Memoirs (Adelaide 2007)

i was clearing my room (getting it repainted hurrah!) and i saw this old piece of Holiday Inn Adelaide Paper.. man, i used to write poem/songs alot during my adelaide trips and during that time of great .. feelings.

When i loved thee

You held my hand, my heart began to rose

we broke up, then we said to close

so far away, many miles apart

only choice was to seperate from the start

it's the things to say to mend my broken wings

it's the only thing among others that i want to say

we were great for each other in the first few months

but now, it's gone too fast

i want to make myself happy

after many months of sorrow

there were just that many shoulders

for my tears to borrow

it was a great tragedy

a future wasn't on our list

bitter tears and broken hearts

reconciliations was my greatest wish

then the truth came out

and your heart was devoted to someone else

oh so sad, this fairytale didn't materialise

so sad that our hearts never again were to rise

too bad, you'll never taste the sweet sincerity

that came together when i loved... thee.

moving on is the only way for tears to dry

getting out cause there's nothing left to try

i can't sleep knowing the shit i've gone through

and it's all because of you

Far apart (and lovin' it)

weather's cold the heart's cold

but i'm feeling so right

close your eyes, don't despise

coz you're busy with him all night

i went to sleep without a tear

for i know that nothing's worth you near

baby, it's gone and it ain't worth a shit

coz you're far apart and i'm loving it

the comforts feeling right

don't need you to hold me tight

i want some space to tell myself that this isn't worth the fight

dont' talk to me about getting together

nor bout talks about being friends forever

your dreams and fairytales are so wrong

and it's hard for us to get along.

Wherever you are

midnight

summerlight

drinking in the moment

stupid fights

drunken nights

crying over scared shit

now i'm so whatever

when you come back

i'll be wherever

when you're here i'll be somewhere far away

in my happy place

oh times were rought, my heart could not stand,

but now here's the finger

from my own strong right hand

now i'm so whatever
when you come back
i'll be wherever
when you're here i'll be somewhere far away
in my happy place

okay, so THIS was how i felt that night. surprisingly enough, it's different now. but i guess i do have alot of angst.

damn you Avril Lavigne. but my rhyming ain't that bad. haha. though on song it might be different. hmmm.

okay, chucked it into the bin already. so this is all that's left of this memory.

Splendid Saturday

oh yes, Ave kindly pointed out what if people gave me duplicates for my birthday presents? erm, inform me before hand loh! i know it'll ruin the element of surprise, but still..






oh yes, thanks to Ave who asked me for a quote on this article

ta daaaa, first step to reality TV stardom LOL.

so the Matriach and i went for our usual saturday afternoon lunch (post book out lunch aka) and this time we went to Great World City for some good ol' Thai Cuisines to pump some quarterly heritage back into my bloodstream. bangkok Jam. famous for fusion thai food. okie lar. not much heiritage then. LOL

ass kicking thai tom yum soup. excellent!
ever popular green mango salad. sour zest fused with the sweet tantalising strips of the fruit makes an excellent entree.
Bangkok Jam's signature drink. the Red Ruby - Watermelon, Lychee & Sprite.

Thai MAggi Mee Salad - Super red hot and supposedly famous on road side stalls in BKK.

my favourite green curry :)

kangkong greens with garlic and chilli!


and guess who i FINALLY met up with after eons of absence? we went shopping for the costumes for next saturdays big bash and wanted to get each other's presents but failed to do so. either way, it was great meeting up after nearly a month or longer! LOVES.

PS: wishlist on previous entry.

WISHLIST!

MY 20th BIRTHDAY WISHLIST

1. Allister Whitehead - Let the Music Use You CD Single

it's a song that is frequently played at powerhouse and wasn't able to find it in local stores. so maybe overseas?

2. rhinestone cap! or actually anything from Ed hardy will do (:

3. ODM watches from Japan, aren't these totally cool? it doubles as a lumionus translucent watch slash bangle. i'm not quite sure where you can find 'em though i heard it was published on I-weekly and 8 days 2 weeks back.

4. Playstation 2 Mini set! yes, i've decided to want a PS2 right when PS3 is coming out. oh, a MODIFIED PS 2 mini pls, yes, the inner pirate in me is shouting "arrrrrrh"

5. Mortal Kombat Movies - haha, i suddenly had an urge to keep the series, if i'm not wrong, there's MK1 and 2 (got 3 not?) and would like to buy those DVDs to watch 'em :D

6. Photoframes. nice ones so i can hang up the pretty pretty pictures of glam friends and yours truly. or whenever i need a spare hammer. i'm kidding. :p

7. Vouchers (close friends not allowed to play cheat, cannot buy this for me!) only if you reached your limit of intuition on what to get me do you give me these carbon credits :p

8. Perfume! my favourite scents are usually fruity/sweet and non too musky or woody. an uncommon scent would be great, nothing conventional. just a hint, my current perfumes are The Paul Smith Story & DKNY Be Delicious.

9. Polo Tees (not for close friends!). always welcomed. no fancy designs though.

10. Aviators. nice pair of shades. my current ones are already bent out of shape

11. Nice Berms for clubbing or for towning around. ask me my waist size *shy* HAHA.

12. a nice Wall Clock for my room (which is to be painted soon! yippie!)

things STRONGLY ENCOURAGED NOT TO BUY

1. Perishable items, namely, FOOD FOOD FOOD. (Alcohol is still okay.. i .... guess)

2. Bags, well, i'm in army now, so i rarely get to use my bags on a regular cycle.

3. Tee Shirts. i've got aplenty in my wardrobe, unless you ABSOLUTELY think i'll love it.

4. CDs, my inner pirate objects strongly to it.

5. underwear. i'm a religious follower of the BUM brand.

6. Facial/Body Products. i think i'm confident enough to take care of my own skin =p

7. Stripper. 'nuff said.

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that's all at the moment.. i think. well. any questions just approach. if i didn't state it in either of the lists, i shuld be QUITE fine by it. aiya, just ask lar ask lar!

chew on this

who would you listen to?

the voice of reason
the voice of a stranger

or

the voice of a friend?