Deja Vu

i think i've had enough. really. whatever i've done is always misconstrued.

trying to be the nice guy that I've always been has been known to be taken as "trying too hard"

maybe church really has made me to look like a giant fake of an ass. why do we give more than we should? coz i've learnt to try to be a giver of all and a taker of none. why do i always poke concern when i see things that are not going right? coz i've learnt to be a person who genuinely care for others, "find the need, meet the deed" . but alas, people call me kaypoh, busybody and someone who knows too much for his own good.

sometimes, i wonder, if it was even best to have just clammed up and be some black-faced person who is so silent that the tension can be cut with a big fat butter knife.

really, to whoever who feels that i'm "trying too hard", if you were ever considerate and ethical enough to tell me personally, i'd have really understood the term of being a friend.

plan of action right now: take a backseat. smile politely. and try to stay away, maybe we all need some breathing space. and I am for damn sure i've got a big sack of oxygen to breathe upon.

we should all stay away from what's clearly not good for us.