Of Mental Disorders, attraction, personalities & prime qualities.

What mental disorder do you have? Your Result: Paranoia You are constantly thinking about what others may be saying about you behind your back. You may also feel people have conspiracies against you, or they are out to get you. In crowds you may feel like everybody is watching to closely.
OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder)
Manic Depressive
GAD (Generalized Anxiety Disorder)
ADD (Attention Deficit Disorder)
What mental disorder do you have?

What type of person do you attract? Your Result: You attract artsy people! Those free spirited artists with great imaginations find you interesting. They are usually interesting themselves, so its not a bad thing, but they CAN be a bit wifty and choose odd goals. If you like life to always be a bit 'different' from the norm, but not too extreme in any one direction, these are the people for you. If you seek logical decision making skills and good money management, you may want to change something in the way you appear. Artsy people are fun for adventure and exploring, so, have fun! (smoking weed helps too)
You attract models!
You attract unstable people!
You attract Yuppies!
You attract geeks!
You attract rednecks!
What type of person do you attract?Quizzes for MySpace

Your score on this personality test was 69%

Others see you as an exciting, highly volatile, rather impulsive personality; a natural lead, who's quick to make decisions, though not always the right ones. They see you as bold and adventuresome, someone who will try anything once; someone who takes chances and enjoys an adventure. They enjoy being in your company because of the excitement you radiate.
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What's Your Best Quality? Your Result: Out-Going Your best quality is out-going! People like you because you are fun to be around and no one ever knows what you will do next. Also you are not afraid to say or do whateveryou want.
Intelligence
Personality
Ambitious
Sense of Humor
Loving
What's" Your Best Quality?Take More Quizzes

yes, apparently pre-labour day festivities are all around in the office, it's past lunch time and i'm all alone in the 3rd floor of the office. i have hence visited a few friends blogs and one post really got me all fizzly as usual (though it was posted yesterday) , but what to say, warm fuzzy feelings. as usual :D

and of course, going down to junvian's blog and then from there on surfing the quiz sites has gotten the above. tsk. but don't blame me, ain't nothing to do today!

Z Chen - Mo Ri Zi Lian

剩下没多少时间　
让我再唱一首歌　
给你　
一过了今夜　
世界就毁灭

我想我还有一天　
可以学会如何来　
爱你　
在来不及以前　
渴望来得及

闭上眼睛　
忍住泪　别哭泣　
末日前夕　请留在　我怀里
看　太阳暗去　月光失明　我只想牵你的指尖　绕地球最后一圈

黑夜降临　
别害怕　我爱你　
末日前夕　
请留在　我怀里
我　在这世界最眷恋的事情　就是曾拥抱你 (多想永远拥抱你)

感受到什么在剧烈颤抖　是天空或者你的手
别让任何事情打断我看着你　最后一次看着你

Finally, chinese lyrics. Cao Ge- Shi Jie Wei Yi De Ni

How~~~ Mmmm~

是你 第一眼我就认出来
这是命运最美丽的 安排
是爱 让你略过慢长等待
我们只要现在相爱 幸福就来
恨我来不及参于你的过去 抱歉让你等待
我愿意付出一切交换 我灵魂的另一半
这个世界唯一的你 是我拥有的奇迹
对我说的一字一句 都是我们的秘密
紧紧拥抱唯一的你 无可救药的坚定
就算世界与我为敌 我也愿意 我什么 都愿意

看~开 过去所有的悲哀 都只是训练我为你 勇敢 真爱
照亮了漆黑的夜晚 寻找了彼此一辈子 再不分开

恨我来不及参于你的过去 抱歉让你等待
我愿意付出一切交换 我灵魂的另一半
I Could Climb The Highest Mountain
I Would Swim The Deepest Sea (The Deepest Sea)
对我说的一字一句 都是我们的秘密
紧紧拥抱唯一的你 无可救药的坚定
就算世界与我为敌 我也愿意 我什么 都愿意

我愿意付出一切交换 我灵魂的另一半
I Could Climb The Highest Mountain
I Would Swim The Deepest Sea
就算要我上天下地
我什么都愿意为你
紧紧拥抱唯一的你 无可救药的坚定
就算世界与我为敌 我也愿意 我什么 都愿意

Fickle Tickle

a late revelation (why am i not surprised?) : fickle-mindedness has always been a flaw in my character.

job decisions and the like are always bound to change, but the stupid (and also admirable) factor of LOVE is that it is consistent. coz when you know it, you know it.

and then again, this song came into my head

And while I know, based on my track record
I might
not seem like the safest bet
All I’m asking you, is don’t write me off, just
yet

And though I know, I’ve already blown more
chances
Than anyone should ever get
All I’m asking you, is don’t write me off, just yet
Don’t
write me off just yet

even so, i guess i've tried, but character flaws (Who hasn't any?) always got in my way.

efforts are different from attempts, coz you placed passion into effort but you placed time into attempt. there's a difference.

and boys and girls, let's make this official, i've left the pub job! hurrah hurrah and all that jazz (yeah right -.-), BUTTTTTT, this gives me a better opportunity to have more normal conversations with the StraightBF Leon & The Big Sister Kelly. Shangri La The Line sounds good yup? :D

your name is still engraved in my heart, baby i still believe. you may not, i don't blame you, my track record is tainted. all i'm asking is chances. they're risky, but if it MIGHT make the both of us happier. why not?

i still wish to be your sunflower.

after a phone call.

sometimes, you're right.

but don't ever ever say you're perfect. no one is. and if you already say you're perfect, you ain't.

no matter what, your faults can't overrule what i feel for you.

i'll change. and this time, it's not just words, but actions. your friends and loyal subjects will be cued in on this too.

a promise is a promise. if broken, good luck and face the karma that bites :)

either way, let's think of alternative nocturnal activities..

1) MIDNIGHT MAHJONG MADNESS!! *nudges the trio frantically*
2) SPIZE NIGHTS WITH CHONG! *nudges river valley road yellow chairs frantically*

erm. okay, i'll think of others, but for now, i can't wait for these 2 to materialise, especially number 1!

i change for myself, and not just that, for us. coz i know, through these changes (yours too) would there ever be a chance to be happy again.

btw, by the time you see this, the surprise should be down under. :D hope you like it.

Status.

Singapore Date: 27th April 2007 Friday
Singapore Time: 1736

Wearing: Topman Green RN. Red White Puma Shoes. nice vintage looking grey jeans from Australia
Walking: on love.

Listening : Tao Zhe - Tian Tian
Looking: the screen, and how incredibly white my office is

Holding: a silly black mouse from HP
Hugging: a dream that seems so far.

Awaiting: his arrival.
Aiming: to get through this month.

Planning: how to spend my money.
Pondering: "Love is patient, love is kind, love does not ENVY"

Singapore Time: 1741

from weiyin jie's blog.

Hugh Grant - Music & Lyrics

And while I know, based on my track record
I might not seem like the safest bet
All I’m asking you, is don’t write me off, just yet

And though I know, I’ve already blown more chances
Than anyone should ever get
All I’m asking you, is don’t write me off, just yet
Don’t write me off just yet .. will ya?

missing boardgames and rehearsals!

people, come line up and form one row and congraulate me for i did not surf Friendster.com and/or blog today at all during work!

well, okay, TECHNICALLY, it counts, coz i only worked half a day (due to some "family" matters), well, after the incident finished, i was free for the rest of the day, and i went to meet weiyin jie for a very delayed lunch over at Raffles City, ketching up over BBF (Beer Battered Fish) @ Chippys whilst reminiscing over foreign holiday trips with FRIENDS!

also, a donut dispute over at the Donut Factory got us exchanging scenario "What-ifs"..

"if you see an old lady against 2 younger girls, who would you side, WITHOUT listening to the situation?"

old lady coz she's old tender and vulnerable?
the 2 girls, coz they're less troublesome and more level headed and modern?

mmm. something to think about.

after tumpang-ing weiyin at her office, i slowly made my way down to CJSOPA for the photoshoot and after waiting 5 hours of makeup and hairstyling and mucho patience, it is finished! the posters should probably be up in some malls. blah. hopefully they choose a good picture. hope i'm not chui -.-

followed by rehearsals @ Square 2 for the kid's fashion show, apparently, as the OLDER teens *rolls eyes* we're to walk the kids down during the finale, which means, strutting your tired weary post-dance body down the very teeny walkway. nothing like what mandy does (hers damn atas looking and cool can, mine machiam Osh Kosh Bagosh reject model) , but NGEH.

i missed boardgames! sorry to jay, weiyin & mabs! GAH, so tired too. so many conseceutive days of rehearsals. but sometimes, a simple gesture or offering of catching up does wonders to your evening. to you-know-who: thanks! though i think you're asleep coz i came back late.

i can't wait to see the photoshoot pictures. time for some friendster photo additions. i've enough of mundane looking shots! :p

and it's back to work tomorrow. NGGGGH.

story.

as the pidgeon soars past the skyscrapers of the Central Business District, a statue overlooks the the river that gently swishes according to the timings of the wind. The occasional pungent sea salt smell gently whiffs itself into the marbled walls of the MNC.

Just as the sun rises and sets, the routine like pattern of an office jobs bites into the lifestyle of the average pre-NS enlistee. The rat race packing into the train at the stroke of half past 6, bustling past Old Lady aunties, the occasional macho mary, and the all too familiar sex-cretaries.

as Goldhill Plaza slowly cascades along with the nocturnal setting ascending, the hollow staircases leading up to a land of potential possibilities seems all to familiar. Unlocking unleashing what you can possess and can do seems like a marketable salesline, but more than just the financial facade, it's a place where dreams do come through if you're willing to pay the price.

Morning sunshine. The dilapidated Katong Mall and its shutters are all down, the echoey meeting point on level 2 shows no sign of human existence, slowly but surely it becomes a family hub where over-eager parents send their stressed out children of 3-9 to violin, piano, ballet, chinese tuition, advanced chinese tuition, higher chinese tuition classes within the vicinity.

the bus stops with a huge chug at the harbourfront bus interchange. sun worshippers and the occasional macho mary traipse towards the newly opened monorail for a chance to experience the island life love it experience. Taking a tram towards the end of Siloso beach, draping and droopy volleyball nets are placed in a strategic form over the carpet of trampled sand. Bouts between aggressive teams are played under the blazing sun as the turquoise coloured waves come crashing onto the wet sand. Sounds of the occasional clapping and grunts come from the court within and handshakes are exchanged after a match is played.

the river is peaceful, far away, you hear boats coming back with exhausted looking rowers with their paddles already wet with the beads of river water. Cox-sons slowly removing the rudder from the tail of the boat, inching towards the pontoon. Out at sea, teams are slowly building up their speed as they trudge towards imaginary finishing lines at the sunspension bridge. Fishermen angrily shaking their fists and using descriptive hokkien to curse at us whenever we enter their fishing line territory. 8, 9, 10... longer.

the gates open with the usual creak and squeak, the padlock is fastened and as the staircase bellows with the footsteps of draggy feet and a very low slung backpack, a tired face rests on the body. Chucking the backpack to the side of his bedroom, he switches on the computer, looks through the familiar msn list of people (eternally) online, and suddenly he has an instant message.

he smiles. he chuckles. and resumes the project. he's at peace with his heart, he knows whatever will be will be. He's done being stupid. He's done being indecisive. He's convicted. He knows that the road less travelled would be a time of surprises, but to reach the finishing line, not only requires perseverance, but sincerity in finishing the line and w.a.i.t-ing.

he takes a long shower and croons his favourite lover songs, and while brushing his teeth, he examines himself in the mirror. great, no choobies, dandy, whiter teeth, alright, facial hair's neat. baby fats still available, darn, but it'll pass.

he gently plops himself onto his penguin-patterned bedsheet, puts his arms behind his head, looks at the ceiling and could almost remember who was the last person next to him on the bed.

Before he rests, he knows he probably has to repeat all the activities within a week again, and thinks whether it's all worth it.

It's time where he experiments in life, knowing what he wants, what he's good at, what he's bad at and who he was meant to be with.

sometimes, he wonders if ever history will repeat itself. then again, he ponders too much and realises that sometimes, sleep is better. but he knows his promises, he knows where his heart lies, he knows who he'll be thinking about. until his love comes back.

Revelation time AGAIN!

sometimes, being insanely jealous and overreactive towards anything does nothing but dispels everything.

i think i've been very unhospitable and especially suffocating. true love lets the person go when it's not the time, but unconditionally thinks about the person all the time.

i still think about you all the time (: i keep my vows and promises, for my word is my bond.

*

hip hop dance practice for the next few nights, it's getting very tiring. Weili's right, i'm committed to too many things and it's splitting my focus and as Laoshi has once said, i'll end up begin a jack of all trades, but a master at none.

Square 2 shopping mall opening performance this coming sunday at 2pm. it's so near, and we've just confirmed that event. so here's to crazy nights memorising steps and wardrobe.

and tuesday's the Battle of Voices or some event like that that apparently has some bigshots in there. i hope i don't screw up my performance.

For now, i'll just manage all these commitments till i've made up my mind and slowly shear off those that aren't exactly the best of the moment.

i'm not really expecting anything big to happen. then again, we really don't know what will happen in the future, do we? All i'm asking for, is to make myself happy, in love and lead a simple and fruitful life, that when i'm 60, i can look back and happily say that i've done what i've can, i've cann-ed what i've done. and now i'm sitting on the can, smiling towards the glowing sunset.

somehow, when i switched on my computer, a simple greeting got me chirpy again, totally didn't expect it. but it just got me motivated. to complete the project.

good night world, i'm sleeping in tranquility and bliss tonight.

Quiz Spam! (most from chcolatepistol)

People Envy Your Compassion

You have a kind heart and an unusual empathy for all living creatures. You tend to absorb others' happiness and pain. People envy your compassion, and more importantly, the connections it helps you build. And compassionate as you are, you feel for them.

What Do People Envy About You?

You Are the Very Gay Peppermint Patty!

Softball is the huge tipoff here... As well as a "best friend" who loves to call her "sir"

What Gay Childhood Icon Are You?

Your Seduction Style: The Charismatic

You're beyond seductive, you're downright magnetic! You life live and approach seduction on a grand scale. You have an inner self confidence and energy that most people lack It's these talents that make you seem extraordinary - and you truly are!

What Is Your Seduction Style?

Your Mind is PG-13 Rated

Your mind is definitely a little dirty. You're naughty, but not trashy. You don't shy away from a dirty joke, and you're clearly not a prude.

Do You Have a Dirty Mind?

You Are 58% Sexy

Your Sex Appeal Is: High You're quite sexy, and you're probably at least partially aware of your powers. Don't let your self doubt ever get the best of you. You're even more attractive than you know.

How Much Sex Appeal Do You Have?

Your Kissing Purity Score: 37% Pure

You're not one to kiss and tell... But word is, you kiss pretty well.

Kissing Purity Test

What Your Underwear Says About You

You buy the sexiest underwear you kind find, and always have something hot on underneath your clothes. You are childlike (or childish), and prone to run around in your underwear.

The Underwear Oracle

You Are Rogue

You're reluctantly special. In fact, you long to be normal. You consider your powers to be a curse, and something you can't control. Powers: absorbing other people's memories and abilities, weakening and killing people with your touch

Which of the X-Men Are You?

You're a Romantic Kisser

For you, kissing is all about feeling the romance You love to kiss under the stars or by the sea The perfect kiss involves the perfect mood It's pretty common for kisses to sweep you off your feet

What Kind of Kisser Are You?

Your Kisses Are Medium-Hot

Your kisses are definitely sexy, but you're not about to make anyone gasp for air. You take it slow and steady... and you ramp things up when you get the right signals. Your kissing style is adaptable and adept. And people who kiss you love it!

How Hot Are Your Kisses?

Your 1996 Theme Song Is: Macarena by Los Del Rio

When I dance they call me macarena And the boys, they say that I'm buena They all want me, they can't have me So they all come and dance beside me

What's Your 1996 Theme Song?

You Are The Opposite of Machiavellian

You don't have a cynical, power hungry bone in your body. Honest and kind, you believe being a good person is the most important thing. While your upstanding morals should be admired, be careful! You're at risk for being manipulated and toyed with.

How Machiavellian Are You?

You Are Elektra

There's really no superhero with more style than you. Because who could beat being sexy assasin ninja?

What Superhero Are You?

You Are 52% Gentleman

Generally you act like a gentleman, but sometimes you're careless with your manners. Most people know that you're trying your best - and that's usually good enough.

Are You A Gentleman?

You Are Sex On the Beach

When comes to drinking, you like it to go down smooth. You really don't like the taste of alcohol - just its effect on you. So, you're proud to get drunk on fruity, girly drinks. Because once you're liquored up, the fun begins!

What Alcoholic Drink Are You?

Your Love Quote

Love makes the wildest spirit tame, and the tamest spirit wild.

What Love Quote Suits You?

What Your Soul Really Looks Like

You are a warm hearted and open minded person. It's easy for you to forgive and forget. You are a grounded person, but you also leave room for imagination and dreams. You feet may be on the ground, but you're head is in the clouds. You see yourself with pretty objective eyes. How you view yourself is almost exactly how other people view you. Your near future is calm, relaxing, and pretty much what you want. And it's something you've been anticipating for a while now. For you, love is all about caring and comfort. You couldn't fall in love with someone you didn't trust.

Inside the Room of Your Soul

Your Social Anxiety Level: 76%

You have high social anxiety. You have a pretty serious social phobia, and it effects your life more than you may realize. It's possible that you've made yourself comfortable by avoiding situations you dread. But don't be fooled - you still probably need professional help.

Are You Socially Anxious?

You Are Karamel Sutra

Plain on the outside, but once someone gets in, they're stuck

What Flavor Ben and Jerry's Ice Cream Are You?

You Are 44% Happy

You're definitely a happy person, even though you have your down moments. You tend to get the most out of life, though there's always some more happiness to be squeezed.

How Happy Are You?

It's almost a reversal. don't let a small thing like me and my words blow up what will be great in time.

tears that flowed a river.

nobody wants to see us together,
but it don't matter now.

today - a slice of bread, a small cup of mango, 2 cheese crab puffs, Oat Milk Packet and a Chocolate Bun.

i'm losing my appetite already.

*

Finally went for a tender brief on behalf of my company, due to the non-disclosure agreement i can't divulge much, let's just say that due to the impromptu decision from my boss to send me, i looked like a freaking teen among the powersuits.

but yeah, this brief was quite essential as it involved a national trademark. so it was quite fun to look so young and cute (HAHA) yet still be some high flying branding exec. HURHUR. yes, let me live out my dream.

*

it hurts to know that sometimes, when you realise that people you love don't approve, give you a reality check but don't respect your decision. it kinda hurts.

*

i'm those close to stabbing myself for being Dr Frankenstein. what a monster i've created.

Random Pictures

the secondary school volleyball khakis :)

Mr Fong's fabulous collage (though i look the freakin' fairest) when he first landed in Sydney. love it loads!

i heartzx mandy BIG TIME :)

soon my CBD jogging / Midnight Mahjong Madness Khakis. :) give me 2 weeks!


yes, gay paparazzi shot, i think this was Gold Coast 2005, notice the oversized Zara Sweater, though i KINDA missed my tinted eyebrows that matched my hair colour, super hiao hor.

Sporty Weekend

watching the Ms Singapore Universe 2007 programme just irks and excites me at the same time. Aside from the QnA segment where you see beautiful girls trying their best to say the most outrageous lie that probably goes against their morals and lifestyle, much ado to say about previous corporations i've "belonged" in. TSK.

if you disagree, kindly refer to the youtube snippet from thru-it-all :D

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working at the Bar for 2 conseceutive nights in a row, followed by a brief visit down to the club below has been the schedule for this weekend. spending time with the big sister Kelly & Wilson the bartender is good too, nice people, nice company. and big thanks fer them fending out the four people that approached me. so not interested, i've got a promise to keep. :) [WAIT].

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saturday was spent teaching early in the morning, followed by SENTOSA :) beach volleyball with the twins and boy, was it fruitful. i missed the feeling of the sand in between my toes and the calm soothing crashing (oxymoronic isn't it?) of the waves.

speaking of vball, decided to participate in the Ripcurl Beach vball competition in mid-May, teaming up with Anna, Ryan & Kenneth. aint' gona win for sure, but gonna have fun :) afterall, my first outdoor sports love is volleyball.

so here's to the following saturdays being burnt up (literally speaking) at Siloso Beach's vball courts, no complaints, but it'd be great if i wouldn't turn so dark [which is a 180degree turn a few months back when i complained that i was getting too fair]

dragonboat training was the same, smaller group today, but jeremy wee get well soon! derrick kong Jiayou with your studies! and Alaric! all the best for your competition, you can do it!

*

my nights are cold without you, i can't afford to let go at anytime now. your song may be (or was) "let me let go" , but for me it's "can't live (if living is without you)"

Project.

25% in progress. i swear what i do will be worth it. not in results, but in the fact that i tried :)

WAIT

though there's much uncertainty, i'm perservering. coz i believe this can work. we can. we will. i'm all for you.

My Muppet and Cake!

You Are Scooter

Brainy and knowledgable, you are the perfect sidekick. You're always willing to lend a helping hand. In any big event or party, you're the one who keeps things going. "15 seconds to showtime!"

The Muppet Personality Test

You Are Strawberry Cake

Fresh, sassy, and romantic. You're a total flirt, who never would turn down a sugary treat. Occasionally you're a bit moody - but you usually stay sweet!

What Kind of Cake Are You?

Mandy on a thursday night!

aside from a day that was spent chartering myself between city hall & raffles place, it was pretty much a snooze fest. I felt like Andie from The Devil Wears Prada without any branded clothing on, delivering, courier and all that jazz.

but my night pretty much picked up afterward when i met ABSO-FUCKING-LUTELY GORGEOUS MANDEE SOH :) we finally have a proper date out! After picking up a few presents for our special someones *WINK WINK* , we decided to settle ourselves down at Burger King @ Liat. and that's when fatigue & over fried Chicken from KFC made insanity manifest.

while we're still okay, till the coke and barley sank in...

:)
declaration of lurbch! w00t.
hell yeah she does! :)
yes. i am so cool. this is the height of fashion and coutre. AVANT GARDE!

*

slowly, surely and steady.

The Keys to My heart.

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart. that sounds like someone i know. In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved. that sounds like someone i know You'd like your lover to think you are stylish and alluring. i am aren't i. HAHA. You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. not really, we all have our vices.but to an extent, true. Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. growing old. with... Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. what i say is what i mean, W.A.I.T. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted. i am, but , you're not.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

heaven hath no entrance without you

just as candle collects wax at the base when lit, so does my affection for you.

we were so brightly shining, with each other.
heated passion, burning deep in the night.
bodies entwined, moved in the spirit.
love making so tender that the wind breathed easily.

heated flames and singing thoughts of leaving,
tears that led to passionate affections that lasted all night.
departure was never an easy word to say.

a delayed reaction to realise that seperation was as good as death.

many a merry drunken satire, that led to a growing irritant.
many a wasted night, that led to an increasing disappointment.

many a quarrels, that slowly teared you away from me.
and many tears shed that had no depth till a revelation came by.

emerging from a cocoon is what they always said i've been.
a more mature, a more careful, a more simple minded teen.

moved by instincts and not nature, disappointments brushed aside
for there's something better.

pushing forward past the anguish, the rejection, the social ostracism. there will find peace.

but is there peace if there's no you?

now you're faraway. love making never seemed more nonexistent. possibilities fill the mind. the substituition of a lover. the parody of being replaced, but it's karma isn't it?

finding one's way back home would be so simple if there was a direction. where is this going?

as a pearl slowly forms in the mouth of the abyss oyster, so does love

a transitional process of reignition. but like the greek army, they move by the command of a voice.

words better left unspoken, but holding onto something that's... unsure?

some call it stupidity, some call it faith. i call it fate.

hearts to alvin korkor & Mandy

loves the godbro Alvin Korkor. :) always giving out frank words of concern and counselling.

sometimes, it's great to have friends that flatter you and powder you with compliments that make your day (partially true but devil may care)

but at the times of need, when people tell it to your face (rather than hearing it from somewhere else) do you realise the need for honesty in a friendship.

and THIS photo is to show my absolutely gorgeous twin and confidante Mandy Virtuous Soh that i HEART her and she did the right thing by dua-ing me (for very romantic reasons which i perfectly accept whole-heartedly, well if ______ was sick, i'd probably cancel, or rather, she and i would go down and look after _____) . but

*points to tit and points to brain* NEH MIND NEH MIND. dinner this thursday with her. so yes, i still is very much heartsies her and loves to tok broken england wit her worZX.

PS mandy You better put a tag, else i'll tit your tag or tag your tit, whichever! which lovely karmic twin would ever put your photo up, SOLO? mmmm. i knows this is getting very mushy fuck but hey, i hearts her so!

have you gotten a twin yet? :)

okay blog readers of a more deep wavelength, i PROMISE i will blog a less-personal, more-philosophical post soon. i just miss one person so much that feelings have gotten in the way of anything lyrical in the head, well except for the lyrics for Gary Cao & Lee Hom below.

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on a more physical and healthy note, the CBD runners have started off on a good route from Caltex House -> Esplanade -> Kallang River Pontoon -> Suntec City -> VCH -> Caltex House.

I know it sounds very longwinded, but aside from running, there were lotsa laughs all around, with new lingos coming up such as CHOOBIES, CHOYA, SPAGHETTIS & (my fav) "ONE TEAM ONE STROKE"

followed by a sinful meal @ a food court nearby. Curry Chicken Noodle, Carrot Cake. talk about indulgences. tsk!

speaking about Tsk-ing, do NOT (i repeat) do NOT go to Caltex House Toilets level 2 after 7pm by yourself. No details here but let's just say i was/am VERY DISGUSTED at what i saw whilst changing. ew.

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everything in moderation. but my love for you grows deeper and more steady.

Gary Cao & Lee Hom

Gary Cao - Shi Jie Wei Yi De Ni

Lee Hom - Ni Bu Zai (You're not here)

you're not here when i really needed love.

Christina & Mary J

i'm sorry for, blaming you, for everything, i just couldn't do.

and i hurt myself, but hurting you.

coz i can't sleep without you baby.

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a revelation is a fast process, but the slower aspect is rebuilding what you broke down before.

Vanessa Hudgens - Baby Come back

Baby come back. i miss you so. really i do.

Google has a sense of humour

1. go to google > more >> > maps

2. click get directions

3. in the two text boxes, type "New York, New York" and "Paris, France"

4. click the 'get directions' button

5. read line 23

and please, show your love for me for showering you with much needed humorous blessings. :)

Weekend Review

a faaaabulous day at the sentosa beach yesterday got me all happy for a saturday that started off as a bitch of a weekend (stupid student cancelled on me).

no torrential downpours! 100 points.

awesome matches (7 wins and 1 loss)! 200 points.

great company from the likes of the twins & the sec sch mates! 100 points.

yes, it felt really great to be under the blistering sun at siloso beach after a long hiatus. got me reminiscing on better times at the beach @ sunset bay before it became uber commercialised with Cafe Del Mar.

hopefully this becomes a fortnightly kinda outing, just like the proposed midnight mahjong madness :) *nudges mabel jay & wy*

afterwhich, we took the very-clean-and-new monorail back to VivoCity for a over-the-top-fucking-full meal @ Carl's Jr, which we saw a Singapore Idol all buffed up after his big gulp days wearing an Ed Hardy (GASP NICE!).

and after walking round & about, we settled our burnt rears @ Pacific Coffee till midnight. very nice evening. :)

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instead of speaking, listen, and you'd hear the other side of the forest where the trees are whispering the reflective words of taboo and distrust.

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also, i got to meet up with gorgeous & her/the boyfriend @ City Hall area after a meal with the team. It's so hard to meet up since we both got office jobs (and worse so if hers is in the west rather than CBD). Though it was minimal time spent, it makes our friendship stronger :)

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I know where i stand, and i'll be accustomed to that.


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so it's back to the humdrum routine @ the office tomorrow. followed by rehearsals, vocals and of course, the absence of you.

Rain Rain.

the torrential downpour along Boat Quay during the hustle and bustle of the lunch crowd hour made me cherish the need for me to look out and stare at the raindrops.

and how i wish that your big soft cuddly embrace, coupled by the whisper of "i love you dear" would ever surface again.

At the office. lunch break as usual

alrighties. bad news! the office has blocked friendster.com . say good bye to impulsive voyeurism.

and you know that work has taken a toil on you when you only blog every other day instead of 3-4 times a day.

but it's good, it makes time past really fast. that it feels that it's less than 3 months before you come back ;)

at the office

so here i am finally making a post at the good ol' office around Boat Quay area. It is indeed skiving to the point that i'm done with ALL my tasks for today, from the extremely mundane to the incredibly brainstorming.

i hate to admit, but an office job is really rather tranquil at times. maybe it's the spacious white of the office that i heartzx. or maybe it's the nice colleagues. or maybe i just have too much time on my hands.

eitherway, i'm quite happy that i've finally sorted out my thoughts. it's indeed quite true that a man is much happier when he's less confused.

SMILES sunshine.

Chinese?

if my dang desktop could post chinese lyrics...

i swear, so many.

Finally..

apple flavoured yakult.
brownies.
cherry garcia.
2 weeks notice.
american idol.
stitch soft toy.
photoframe.
shades.
wasted.
35 bucks cab fare.
maestro bistro.
ding tai fung@ suntec city.
"come what may" @ bus stop.
the long winding road home.
the change list.
wrapping wantons.
teasing me about how vain i am.
holding me tight.
all things sweet.
trying on gay looking IK stuff.
hula hooping with Bob The Builder helmet @ Paragon Toys R Us.
Pan the Faun & nightmares.
dead fish on sofa.
drawn curtains @ IK Cathay.
chocolate bits from Cherry Garcia.
Silent FRIENDS running on TV.
gross original flavoured yakult.
green tee shopping.
banana muffins @ paragon starbucks. my treat.
signature pout.
Pokemon.


i've been a fool to not realise how good people are in front of you.
i can't afford to throw these memories into the bin. they're too precious.

i see the gifts, the tiniest to the biggest, i remember the treats, from the most atas to the most minute. i realised the truth, i realised the revelation of an unconflicted mind.

if it means to wait until snow falls in summer, i have to wait. if i came up with wait, i will have to wait. if i had to do everything all over again, i'd do it all over again, because i love you this much to say that had i never met you, i'd be a loveless wreck.

had i never met you, i'd never understand the feeling of being owned by someone, to understand the feeling of fuzzyness, the feeling of genuine movie dates, the genuine feeling of caring for someone so much to show the blunt damn reality of life.

had i never met you, i'd never understand why people cry themselves to sleep at night.

had i never met you, i'd never understand why some people are such mushy fucks around their other halves.

had i never met you, i'd never understand the lyrics of the worlds most cheesiest and cheena pop songs all around the world. (that means Lee Hom, Z Chen & Gary Cao for now)

had i never met you, i'd never understand why long term relationships would mean one of them usually grows fat. (from all that excessive sweet treats you give)

had i never met you, i'd never understand the harshness of life but the sweet taste to love and be loved.

had i never met you, i'd never understand why some people can sing so loud on the streets and really don't give a flying fuck to the people around them.

had i never met you, i'd never imagine or believe that friends and partner can ever hang out together.

had i never met you, i'd never understand the meaning of LOVE of the higher degree.

i'll wait.

SMU applications close TOMORROW!

finally done with my final uni application to SMU. why yes, floral patterns and smart looking male tees are certainly a draw to SMU.

well, while i was filling the forms up, i had a good feeling about this, but hey, maybe it's just me ya know?

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work starts tomorrow instead of today. ngggh. long story.

oh no, my savings are diminishing! retail therapy too much! ack. time to start saving and become a comfort boy.

i'm kidding.

CCWA Dragonboaters.

the CCWA boaters.i love them alot alot alot! many days and nights have been worth the lack of sleep and other commitments. It feels as though I've found a group of people i could really enjoy.

but sometimes, i think it's really bittersweet for me. i know that i'm having the best moments of 2007 with you all, but at times, for me, i feel that it could have the SLIGHTEST possibility to conclude sooner that i'd expected .

chin up, walk along,
and as we sing this heart felt song.
make sure you remember
that the promises we made together

as friends, we talked
as mates, we roared.

like the fires of the sun
let all of us be as one.
and as morning dew forms on the tree,
i'll be there for you (all) as you'll be there for
me.

on a less scarce note, it's 5hrs and 25 mins to reporting time at Circular Rd and apparently i can't sleep.

go ahead, do your worst, i'm only preparing myself for what has apparently been prophecied. for the soothsayer wags his tongue as the harpy flaps her feathered wings to the beat of the drowning sun, for both are oblivious to the facts that they are throwing caution to the wind.

would you take me back.. ever?

if i were to appear to you barenaked, vulnerable in all aspects, would you take me back?

if i were to say to you that i was sorry and wish i'd never said anything negative towards what we had, would you take me back?

if i were to tell you that i thought of you everytime i looked at another person, would you take me back?

if i were to say that i won't miss something till its gone and wish i regretted not doing holding tightly, would you take me back?

alas, just as time and tide, feelings have moved on, but my heart yearns for much security and i've felt that security.

i wish i could turn back time. but carpe-ing the diem, i'll just confess, profess.

as Damien Rice would say.. Sleep, Don't Weep.

goodnightmorning world, working at MOX and a short drink at PLAY has certainly exhausted my engines.

The Straight Boyfriend's 21st @ Bianco

My Colleague Kelly, whom exclaims that i look like a mirrored reflection of her younger blood brother. mmmm.
My little butch cashier. Lee! hearts.

And of course, the straight boyfriend himself. haha. and just in case people are wondering why he's called the straight boyfriend? well, there was once this pestering customer that was being very indecent in front of me, so TSBF (the straight boyfriend) went up to that guy and said that i was his boyfriend and i'm not interested. CHIVALROUS RIGHT.

and on a very obvious note, he's not gay. i think. HAHA. and of course, have to hide his identity lar, skali he paiseh. hor TSBF?

and a few random statements that happened.

# i got picked up at the toilet in a club near where i work. tsk! this guy was quite sober. i was walking around finding TSBF's friends to gather to the table reserved. He saw me glance into the toilet and then walked out, he then proceeded to grab my hand and pull me very close to him! and said that "the toilet's meant for peeing, you shouldn't just walk in and go out!". i explained to him that i was just looking for my friends. and he was like "oh, okay. you're very cute. can i get to know you?". Hesitating, i then just brushed him aside and said "oh, sorry, erm, not at the moment as i'm very busy" (and on another note, CHUI!)

# went to another club nearby to see the doorbitch. haha, yes yes!

# bumped into a few familiar buddies and they were celebrating a birthday too, and they were in theme! so it was quite neat to see them at the VIP area again, but in a different theme.

# my hand was held three times by 3 random strangers whilst i was walking around PLAY. worst, some groped some place down south. NOT COOL. VERY CHUI AND VERY BAD "PICK UP LINE"

# i remained sober throughout! :D

so tomorrow's a long day and i'm still up. man. i wonder how i'll survive. tsk!

oh PS: the brother's coming back in the morning instead, he apparently got bumped off the earlier plane but got a very favourable sum of aussie cash AND a promotion to business class on the subsequent plane ride. NEAT.

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dinner with yongmin was as usual a time of great philosophy. funny how (in his words) "we can still clique after knowing each other for 4 years" yeah, funny how life plays it out.

It's weird that i usually sustain friendships with people whom i have no common activities with, kok, mingshan, ym etc.. but hey, friends are friends, and as much as i'm there fer them, i hope they are fer me too.

and as it's 0400 hours in the morning, i'm certainly not being lyrical about my blogpost. BAH! :D

goodnightmorning world.